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November 23, 2006

Thanksgiving post

I may not be online much over the holiday, so I might as well give this a shot now.

Basically, I'm finding it harder than ever to feel thankful this year. One has to try, but as I looked over the last year of posts in trying to compile a blogaversary recap that never happened, I wasn't exactly heartened. In many ways, I've never fully come out of the funk that I fell into following my surgery last year. This isn't entirely unrelated to the fact that they kept finding more ways to charge me for it, and I made less and less money. Then the city of LA hit me with a business tax, which I don't make enough money to be charged, except that because I didn't tell them that in time, I am being charged.

I thought the New Times/Village Voice merger would be good for me, but all that's really happened is that I've become the scapegoat among pretentious New York cineastes for everything they hate about New Times. Okay, I'll be the bad guy, the designated villain, the Marilyn Manson of film criticism. Maybe one day Disney will offer me a big paycheck to record a song for a movie that covertly undermines people like me.

Friends are disappearing, moving away, coupling up and circling the wagons. I'm very thankful for the times I do spend with them. I wish there were more.

Over the past year, this blog has turned more into a review blog than anything else. In part that's because I felt like I got burned by confiding anything about my personal life, and so there's lots of that stuff I never said a thing about. The things I've been through in the dating game this past year would read like a comedy of errors if I told them all. But we can always talk movies, and that seems to get me the most hits anyway, so hey, I'm thankful for that.

I'm thankful for the real friends, especially Matt and Jaye who go above and beyond and I probably don't thank them enough in person.

I'm thankful for family, though I hardly see anyone in that category as they all live far away. My choice, I guess.

I'm thankful for those who allow me a creative outlet and collaboration -- film-makers like Greg, Paul, and Sean who believe in what I can bring to the table. And Julia and Lindsay for getting me to No Shame Theater.

I'm thankful for the editors who respect me.

I'm thankful Mad Cowgirl will soon be out there on DVD for the world to find, and see my multifaceted contributions.

I'm thankful my health is better than it was a year ago. And I know there's more that could go wrong; I'm thankful that it hasn't.

After this past summer, I'm also more thankful for fall weather than I ever have been before.

And I'm thankful I have somewhere to be today. I hope you do too.

Posted by LYT at November 23, 2006 1:36 AM [Message Board]

Comments

Hang in there, L.Y.T.! You absolutely *have* to not let the criticisms get to you.

I personally think you should be *encouraged* that you have become a scapegoat among the pretentious New York cineastes. This is a high honor indeed. Their criticisms concede you are consequential. Remember, "the only worse thing than being talked about . . ." Repeat to yourself as needed.

Posted by: Bradley J. Fikes at November 23, 2006 7:38 AM

absolutely agree with Bradley above - being talked about is good - and if in the end it shines through that your reviews are more honest than theirs -(some if...due to their trying to play "we are the elite- you don't fit" this is inevitable)
- then the last laugh and last line will be yours for the taking.

Posted by: offpat at November 23, 2006 8:06 AM

Man, what is with the gov being out to get people this year? Are they strapped for cash or what?

Chin up! It's been a pretty bad year financially for just about everyone, I think. Perhaps next year will look up.

=)

Posted by: Julie Scott at November 23, 2006 9:31 AM

The problem with the infamy is that it's affecting my financial bottom line. That's the bothersome part.

As to the government being strapped for cash, Julie, I think I heard something about a war somewhere that's quite expensive.

Posted by: LYT at November 23, 2006 10:08 AM

I'm thinking the city of LA doesn't fund much of the Iraq War. I could be wrong, but...

Yeah, I miss the personal stuff, when I think about it. More lYT!!

Posted by: David N. Scott at November 23, 2006 3:35 PM

There might be some opportunities in the future. Read this:

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Newspapers Cutting Costs by Cutting Film Critics

In their effort to cut costs as subscribers desert them, newspapers are firing their film critics and replacing them with wire-service reviews.

In a commentary appearing today (Thursday) in the Orlando Sentinel's blog, the newspaper's film critic Roger Moore, discussed the recent ousters of Jamie Bernard at the New York Daily News and Mark Burger at the Winston-Salem Journal and the reassignment of George Thomas at the Akron Beacon Journal. Moore wrote: "When a paper loses its critic, a town loses another local voice. The 'we can run wire service reviews' line may be true. But heaven help the movies the day we're down to a couple of critics in the largest markets syndicated everywhere. There aren't many who would play all over America."

Moore noted that his own newspaper has also come under the knife. "We used to have two people on the movie beat here, which allowed us to cover the heck out of what was (and WASN'T) happening in a city that wanted to be 'Hollywood East.'"

Moore concluded by giving this advice to young would-be film critics, who are thinking of starting out writing for websites or their college papers: "Don't even start. Don't try this at home. It'll break your heart."

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Despite Moore's last statement, if that's what the newspapers are pursuing in order to compete is this fast-paced world of "digital journalism," as I call it, then let them that you're out there...

Posted by: Edwin A. Santos at November 23, 2006 8:26 PM

More LYT!!

Posted by: David N. Scott at November 23, 2006 10:57 PM

Being thankful. i'll remember it.thanks.

Posted by: Jason Z. at November 24, 2006 2:04 AM

regarding the dating game, have you been to a tattoo convention? you've got plenty of them, are a fan of that and colored hair and the kind of music people like me associate with tats and piercings and whatnot.

and you've commented in the past that a: you don't fit in and b: you get positive comments on your tats and hair.

so it would seem that people who are likewise into tats and colorful hair and probably share your cultural tastes, would be at these conventions.

i know they exist. i don't know, i'm the last person to look to for romantic advice, but seeking out people who share your interests more closely than vapid hollywood starlets would seem to be a good thing to try if you haven't already.

that, or join a band. that seems to work for nearly everyone.

Posted by: sean (connery) at November 24, 2006 11:41 PM

Yeah, that's what I recently told a group of aspriring high school journalists when I was on a panel at USC. There's always a few cute intellectual-looking 17-year old boys who ask me how to become a film critic. This year, I pretty much just said, "Don't bother." No, actually I said to watch lots of movies and make sure you can write about lots of other subjects as well. And I told them all to get plenty of online training. Although I pretty much would like to have told the whole room "Don't bother."

Posted by: Pat at November 27, 2006 3:16 PM

It's true. Most people I know who aren't in the critical game themselves rely far more on the opinions of Internet critics, I think in large part as a response to what I think of as the "New York" style of carefully crafted bon mots as opposed to plain old straight talk about what you can expect from the movie.

Newspapers in general aren't doing so well these days anyhow. Unfortunately, few of the websites actually pay anything.

Posted by: LYT at November 27, 2006 4:47 PM

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